im way 2 sensitive. i let things get the best of it. i dont trust a lot of ppl so i dont tell everyone my business & whats going on bc 2 b honest it is a lot & i dont just want anyone to be involved in what is going on. the thing about me is that i hold in a lot of my emotions. i let things just slip and not worry about it. hey, thats just me! its how i deal w/ life. but now, as of today, found out that i shouldnt even do that. the thing is, not everyone gets what you are saying. they dont FULLY see where u r coming from. they just give you the best advice they think will help u. even if it has nothing to do w/ what u r saying. then there r the ppl who just try & relate 2 ur problems. "o u know i went thru the same thing, so i totally get it..." i didnt ask u 4 that! i asked 4 advice, not relate ur bs w/ my bs! ya know? maybe i am just picky. maybe i am asking 4 too much. the thing is what im telling ppl isnt just one thing like "i made a D on my test" or even "my bf pissed me off again" its like multiple things that r really affecting my life. i use 2 keep everything 2 myself, & not rell any1 anything. but then 1 event happend whn i burst & shocked a lot of ppl, so i had no choice but 2 open up more. its hard 4 me bc i dont trust ppl. its a personal thing. i am a friendly person; im the kind of person who is cool w/ every1 & who knows every1 & just an all around person. but it doesnt mean that im going to include every1 in2 my life. thats just 2 much 4 me. im going thru a lot & i talked 2 some of my friends about it. the thing about me is that i kinda get overly emotional bout stuff. so whn im going off bout stuff my friends misunderstand me & think im going off on them. instead of listening 2 what im saying, they just pay attention 2 my tone & r automically pissed. like GEEZ LOUISE!!!
i feel like no one really listens 2 what im saying. they just pick up what they wanna hear and go off on that. & then get @ me when i say that that is not what im tryna say. sooo ive decided 2 just pretend that im ok. 2 pretend that everything is ok. decided 2 not worry about everything that is going on in my life. not call or talk 2 anyone bout anything. would rather cut that bs outta my life. writing about it is just a whole lotta better!! plus i can easily just get everything out there w/o hurting anyone's feelings. WHEW! i feel better already:)
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